Friends..

I had watched the fireside tonight while Janell was nice enough to come over and cook for Baca and I. We had taco salad with a surprise of funnel cakes after (delicious!). I had been up and down lately with life questions, not being where I want to be in life, being poor, ect. I finally finished the Twilight Series about 10 minutes ago and was happy with the happy ending...I would like to explain and hopefully match up to the blessings my friends and family have given me. Please forgive me if I don't go into details about everyone. Freshest on my mind is Janell. With her loud and great appreciation for life we have had our drama many years ago living together. I could never ask for such a sweet soul to come back and consider me a friend. She had gone on a mission and gained a strong testimony. Yes, she makes fun of my horrid cooking but is considerate enough to cook herself. She is easy to talk to and confide in. I feel bad enough when I have such a boring life (married life lol) while she can enjoy the roommate adventures (roommates she actually likes!). My love will never stop for my lovely Janelly.
Susel has been with me through out most of my time here. Her spiciness for life always gets me excited. She has grown with me. We have struggled and succeeded together. I truly love going where ever she is...they had bought a house recently and my favorite part is walking through the door and feeling so at home. Even in their apartment days I can feel the spirit strong in their home. Her and Josh have helped us and watched over us for some time now. I don't know what I would do with out her! They love us and we love them.
April- my dear friend. She has been struggling since her move to Pittsburgh and I feel her pain. The first time I met her I was so intiminated with her southern "charm". She has never wavered to be a great person and an excellent friend. She made me feel comfortable in my own skin. (my favorite part is when you she gives away clothes!! mwauhaha!) The night before they left I knew I would feel a hole in my life once they drove out of the state. I did. I keep her in my prayers to make her times easeier. Luckily she has a great husband to keep her company! I wish to see her soon.
Linda, my true other half! I still think about our dream...Japan! We finally did it..after 10 years of hoping and we achieved it- together. I can say anything to her. Even if we are far away, meeting up for a reunion once a year makes it ten times better to see each other. That awesome day we met (wow, this sounds like a lovers story huh?) we kind of just hung out...I never felt uncomfortable or nervous (in a bad way). We clicked. Still do and always will! She was there at my wedding, she will be here for my first child..and I will do the same for her.
Ken- Achilles ken! My lovely, dorky brother has stuck with me since I came in 2004. I feel for him...lol. He has done a better job with staying in touch than I have. I am grateful. We have had an agreement not to gripe at each other when we do something dumb (we get enough crap from our other family ha). He never stops understanding. He is quiet and mature (may not always act like it) but you can feel his reverence. I give him thanks for being a great brother.
Wes my other wonderful brother. He has been struggling and I wish I could do more. He is such a good guy and his "greatness" (ego) will take some time to really shine. He recently just moved to UT, its nice to think he is right down the road instead of 11 hrs away. He has been the advice giver for many of our family members (other than dad). He helps me back to reality very...nicely. I hope to keep him happy while in Utah.
Of course- Baca. Lately he has been working part time and school. I have to remind myself he is working for our future. I love him very much. He is fickle with his hair (about haircuts and trimming his beard). Of course he loves his games. The kid is ADD most of the time except when he has his computer in front of him. It's the special moments where he responds to my questions with thoughtful looks and answers that touches me. He accepts me for who I am..and sometimes I am handful. Some of our best moments are when we can talk freely about our future..what we want, what our kids names will be, where we want to live... He is important and apart of me.
Debbie my other mom- she accepted me from the beginning. The first time I came over to meet her an hour later we were looking at Baca's baby books and pictures. I knew then and there I would be sticking around. I felt the same from her. Her and the rest of the fam are so kind to me. Sometimes I don't feel I deserve it but they deal with my craziness. Family is a great word to explain our relationship. I dread the day they will get sick of me! lol
To my other family and friends - you helped mold me. I still look to everyone for answers and love when you approve. I just want to make my family proud. Thank you and sorry again for the random thoughts. <3